Yesterday marked one year since we lost mom. I have been trying to come to terms recently with that, and trying to come up with thoughts to share on this blog. I like having the blog to post things about mom, memories of her, and other related information, but I have been having trouble recently coming up with anything meaningful. It seems that the only meaningful thing is that she isn't here, and I can't find anything to say about that.
I am reminded all the time how lucky I am to be her daughter, and how much I learned from her. These thoughts make her absence more difficult, but that it to be expected. I think of fun and funny memories and smile, but am also sad that memories is all I have. I continue to feel overwhelmed by how unfair it is that mom got sick, and that there wasn't anything the doctors could do about it. I'm just so angry about it, even though I know that doesn't help anything.
I don't know what to say aside from how much I miss mom, and how much I wish she were still here. I can't come up with a nice way to memorialize her life on the anniversary of her passing. Hopefully I will be able to get past this, but for now I don't have any meaningful words.
